Just for Me – Boring I Am Pregnant Stuff

I have had a few people ask me why I haven’t done regular posts since November or so. I guess I realized I had been doing the blog more for other people than for myself and really, who wants to read that? From me anyways.

I ran out of space in my brain for all of that.

My last post was regarding my “little bean”. We are still calling him or her “little bean” but we do have a couple names sort of picked out. We never do seem to pull off names before the baby is two days old or they are kicking us out of the hospital all together. It has been fun messing with people’s heads on names too. Always a joy to indulge our evil sides and watch people’s faces distort in horror when you suggest “Hannibal” as a serious contender for a boy name.

I have three weeks left and really, I am excited. I am terrified and excited. It is good that gestation takes nine months because if it were any shorter I would have been much more panicked. I am not sure when I switched over from feeling like this little surprise was ridiculously surprising, kind of like how I would have felt had Alex and I gotten pregnant before we were married to a feeling of being given another chance but it happened somewhere along the way there.

I have been trying to appreciate certain aspects of pregnancy this time. I need to take some photos of myself as I have absolutely none of my previous two pregnancies, something I regretted afterward. One nice thing about this pregnancy, so far, no new stretch marks! After the third I guess I am all stretched out so my belly doesn’t look like Freddy Kruger got a hold of it.

My kids have been so sweet with the baby too. Nate humors me and I am sure thinks I am crazy when I tell him to feel the baby move. Alex has been able to feel this little kicker since 19 weeks old. Nate on the other hand, he thinks I am nuts and just makes his hand jump and goes “oh, I feel one Mommy!” to humor me so I will give him his hand back. Sweet huh? The baby just will not kick fast enough for his three year old attention span. Maybe in the next 3 weeks. He sings to the baby and kisses on it and pokes it and jumps on it though. This is going to be a tough baby, I can tell. Ella is wonderful and so funny. She is quite insistent that this baby is a girl. She insists it is a girl because she prayed for a girl. Umm…. We may have a challenge to our faith on our hands come delivery day. I have tried to explain but she has it in her head that she will get what she prayed for and that a little sister is sure to be much less annoying than a little brother. I tried to explain that second part also, she isn’t convinced. That is okay, a friend at church had the same issue and she gave me a great angle so I am good to go if there is a wee wee.

Alex is sweeter with this baby belly than the other two as well. It really is wonderful to see him bond with the lump in my abdomen that really is quite freakish sometimes, sorry little bean, you are. He is convinced it is a boy.

It is fun not knowing.

We had another ultrasound, my latest ever in a pregnancy. The midwife wanted to make sure I wasn’t giving birth to King Kong. I am not, a nice perfect 49th% baby. As a special treat to us and I am sure directly related to the fact that BOTH of my kids were sitting quietly and being sweet, the ultrasound technician turned on the 3D. My heart almost fell out of my chest when I saw my baby’s squishy little face. HOW INSANE IS THAT! Facial features. Inside. Through all my fat!! It was crazy. I was so thankful. What an amazing experience.

There is his or her squishy face and an arm. Poochy lips. So yum.

I also hope this will be an opportunity to share this with my Mother. She hasn’t been able to make it to the other two deliveries. She was just outside the hospital with one and just outside the city with the other. I have to give her enough time to not necessitate time travel to see her grandbaby born this time.

In the meantime Alex and I have turned over some new leaves. We have some big goals, new challenges and exciting things to look forward to. We are busy with guinea fowl, vegetable gardens, home renovations, six year olds, three year olds, Dave Ramsey, marriage, and that seems to be enough to keep us busy for the moment.

I would love to blog again regularly but we will see where that fits in later. In the meantime man this blog needs a makeover. Do not have time for that. I am busy nesting in other places, I think my online space will have to wait.

Cheers! See you soon-ish.